20
Nov

nov. 21, 2009

freaking internet is cramping my style!

here i am all ready to get my jollibee breakfast, but my download is taking 48 years! so now, i’ve missed that “only till 10am” window, where do i go?  i’ve been wanting to eat jollibee breakfast for the entire week! plus, my lovely barrio had, for probably the 100th time this year, a transformer blow-up, so i couldn’t download earlier today.

bloody perfect.

this isn’t ruined however tinapay. even my mother’s early morning state of the nation address won’t ruin my day. i’m getting me some fun time today and the rest of my weekend.

enjoy your weekend too. :)

19
Nov

nov. 20, 2009

been very uncharacteristically untalkative lately, very uninspired. (so THAT was inspired to me? hah!)

- last night’s glee was amazing. they should keep the song numbers to a minimum of five.

- my project’s been halted due to some unforeseen events. now, teapot is threatening to set the project on fire if i don’t clean up the mess i’ve created. mother hen.

- whoever misscalled me last night while i was SOUND ASLEEP should have two huge pimples on their faces this morning, no make that two huge pigsas on their derriere - on each cheek!

-i’ve now come to the conclusion that bajoy is currently being held hostage by a group of bandits in sri lanka, allowing her 5 seconds of internet each month.

- i need this year’s thanksgiving badly.

- so finally, new moon is here, who wants to go on a date with me? anyone? :)

14
Nov

nov. 14, 2009

yikes! my big sister just found my three bottles of vodka mudshake and asked me a very obvious question (hence laced with “you’re a loser, you shouldn’t be doing this” undertone).

“what are those?”…. i looked at geno (my accomplice) and said, “inumon, mayo lang, gusto ko lang manamitan”.

“tano tulong gayo? gusto mo palan manamitan sana”.

“siempre ta iba-iba flavors niya, chocolate, caramel, and cappuccino”.

thankfully she left it at that (but not without the long tsk and that “you will sort of go to hell ” last look). i’m kidding of course. she just actually made the long tskkkk and walked away.

now tonight was supposed to be our pajama party slash mac and cheese pigout slash truth or consequence slash first alcoholic drink in over four years night. (i btw bought 15 packs of lucky me mac and cheese. the saleslady eyed me curiously, prompting me to say, “try mo, promise, maugma siya”.)

only problem, my mac and cheese chef is still not around and the bottles of mudshake are lukewarm. plus geno is nursing a bitch of a headache he says. so resched it is.

does the idea of eating mac and cheese and drinking vodka sound ludicrous to you? it does to me. my insides can only imagine the kind of riot these two will do to them. sa agang banggi masusubukan. i hope.

have a wonderful weekend y’all.

addendum:  COTTO FOR THE WIN! hehehe…

12
Nov

nov. 13, 2009

- the three-hour scheduled brownout today broke my momentum and hinuhugakan na akong maray magresume sa trabaho. 20 more minutes of reading celebrity tweets and promise, mawork na ako.

- it’s friday the 13th. brownout. definitely a bad luck day.

- my little sister and i have found a new obsession - the new lucky me mac and cheese. i’m going to load up on that next i time i do my groceries. pahingalo muna sa pancit canton.

- my project has been keeping me preoccupied and drained…. wallet-wise. (sigh).

- geno asked me last night after watching political ads, “what if si derek ramsay na lang kaya maging presidente?” , to which i absentmindedly and stupidly replied, “pinoy ba si derek?“. yep, that’s the biggest obstacle he faces - his citizenship. very funny.

- eat before work. lunchtime!

07
Nov

thoughts running….

i am not a morning person. i AM thankful i work inside my room with a thick black blanket covering the windows where little sunshine could peek in.

i appreciate my boss for giving me semi-positive, semi-scolding feedback.

i love my sisters.

i can’t wait for new moon.

i am thankful to facebook for reconnecting me with old friends.  it’s safe (and kind of sad, hehe) to say that it’s the only social life i have going on right now.

i love the days leading up to christmas. there’s no other holiday quite like it.

i look forward to talking with cathy every time. she’s the only person who’s licensed to call me horrid names and i wouldn’t get pikon.

i miss my cousins and my high school friends. i hope i see them during the holidays.

i do try each saturday to not be lazy and i fail each time.

i am going to ask my guy friends this when i see them, “how would you feel if you get to wake up to aling dionisia’s face each morning for the rest of your life?”

i loved jollibee’s chicken tocino.

i think someday, someone is going to think i’m a gem and a keeper. :)

06
Nov

good morning!

my project is well under way. yey!

however, that means i’m up and out at this ungodly hour, 7am. masisirangan  akong saldang! how unusual is that? mama’s going to be happy though. she’s been repeatedly harrassing me to get the benefits of the D. i’d reply that i can get that encapsulated and i don’t have to go against my vampire roots. she’d then look at me strangely, probably wondering how the hell she’d raised such weird daughter.

anyway, have to run some errands with the little sister and get our jollibee breakfast in a bit. hmmm….

now, you go have an amazing weekend. :)

06
Nov

nov. 7, 2009

tere has just gone on a blogging leave. :(  (now, should i threaten her to boil the neighbor’s dog if she doesn’t come back or shave my head perhaps?…..i’m kidding, i’m kidding).

i’m gonna miss reading her blog. it’s the perfect mix of the mundane and the relevant. (mine however heavily favors senselessness, hah!). i feel like i got to know her better through that blog. but she says it well. blogging does have its pitfalls.

ako, why do i blog you ask? the exact same reason tere gave why she’s momentarily leaving cyberlife - because i want to give you a tiny access to my thoughts. a little peak into my soul (however dramatic that sounds).

i blog because it’s the only way i can share my life with you. all seven of you. :)
on a weird note: friendster blog offers very limited storage space and after checking  my status, i found out i’ve used up almost 99%. oh well, maybe i need to go on a vacation too.. or move to a new house. hmmm….

05
Nov

nov. 6, 2009

finished with work earlier than predicted, which came as a surprise to me.

each time bossing asks me to estimate time of upload of all files, i’m always off by at least an hour. i salute one officemate who bravely replies: “4:15 po maam“. how precise! may 15 minutes pa talaga!  ako ang pirming kong simbag, “mga 4-5pm po maam, pero pwedeng lumampas and sa tingin ko po maam, lalampas“. how pasaway my bossing finds me, she never lets on pero one of these days i might just know.

been wanting to get a sound system. during one of my canvassing trips, a salesman jokingly commented,”garo nagpupundar ka na maam ha”. such an odd word - pundar. i’m scared to use it….it sounds so…matrimonial. hehe… so no, dae ako nagpupundar. nagbabakal akong bagay2. :)
btw, want to see something funny?

no, that’s not  at a funeral. that’s from my junior prom posted on our batch facebook account. face apparently is clairvoyant and knew that social networking sites such as facebook would be created in the future, offering her the opportunity to get back  at us for whatever wrong we did to her in high school by posting our dreaded, awkward, and very 90s sense of fashion. perfect revenge! i’m kidding of course. i actually love seeing this picture. read the caption. at that time i kept thinking maybe there’s something wrong with me. now, i know HE WAS JUST A RUDE ASSHOLE TEENAGER.

anyway, funny ano? garo man lang ako middle-aged  na majongera! :)
you so lucky cat mayo kang picture duman!

04
Nov

nov. 5, 2009

= broke two of my cardinal rules yesterday. took a nap at noon and ate more than one kitkat bar. only excuse, i was TOO SLEEPY to care about the rules.

= some people have got to know when it’s WAY TOO EARLY to call or text. he’s a nice guy and all tere, i know that, pero 6am is still too ungodly for me. plus i was having on of the THE most beautiful dreams ever, i wanted to tear my hair out when i suddenly heard my ringtone!

= looks like my project is going to push through this november. yahoo! long time coming. i’ve been very uncharacteristically patient. hope it isn’t a flop.

= bing told me a very nice thing the other day and i saved our YM convo just so i’d have something to cheer me up when i have one of those ugly, pity party days such as yesterday. worked wonders bing. hehehe… (grabe sa kababawan, pero it does work!).

= my mother’s most riveting question as of late, “tano bro na Siya ngunyan?”

= the moon last night was a tease! didn’t even get to admire it for 5 minutes!

= love the weather today. would love it even more if i could spend the entire day in bed (hopefully continuing my interrupted dream).  oh well, chuckie time…good morning!

01
Nov

nov. 2, 2009

woke up at around 2pm. only because i had one of my worst dreams.

i dreamt a guy referred to me as “a woman in her late 20s”.

shyett!!! woke up in cold sweat, got up hurriedly, and took a long look at the mirror.

pakshet, i AM soon going to be a woman in her early 30s!

somebody wake me up!

01
Nov

nov. 1 , 2009

buds and i saw patient x and it was so bad we kept talking and laughing the entire time. nang, binggay, and anti came home and we all saw the echo. this one’s better. all three little girls kept screaming and nang almost peed in her pants. anti and i made fun of them. (by the way, i take after anti sa movie watching. she started watching movies alone in her preteens! and not only that, she made her rounds to almost all seven theaters in one week back in the day. idol! hehe)….tomorrow i’m watching michael’s “this is it. ” but first i have to finish this work. argh. you’re such a loser tinapay.

fun weekend… :)

31
Oct

happy halloween 2009

i will go out on a limb here and call this the scariest slash funniest thing i have seen so far this year’s halloween.

 

it is SO WRONG…. hahaha!!

30
Oct

oct. 31, 2009

brownout in manila  = no work for me yet.

oh well. leaving to run some errands (which just translates to me picking up 5 packs of kit-kat and 2 kilos of lanzones for mother).

i’m going to get my heater today. wish me  luck on a bargain price.

and say hi to your dearly departed.

to lola and lolo and my uncle and my cousin - keep an eye on us still here guys.

gotta run.  happy halloween! :)

29
Oct

Oct. 29, 2009

to anybody who cares to read about my sleeping and pooping habits, go right ahead.

= got asked, “so, how many people do you think read your blog?” - hmmm…i think six people do. tere, jinx, cat, sometimes luns, sometimes mon, and bing (all because they have 24/7 access to the internet, so what’s 30 seconds to waste on tinapay’s blahness?). i dont even think my baby sister or bes religiously visit my blog.

= i think coffee and i are now bestfriends. i still can’t drink it hot, but the trick is to mix it with super cold chuckie and out comes my inner perky, non-zombie  side. plus, i no longer take naps at midnoon now. (this is all in my head, but damn it seems to be working).

= been rewatching my ultimate chick flicks - the x-men trilogy. going to revisit west side story, phantom of the opera, and gone with the wind this weekend. plus forced the little sister to libre me to watch patient X. yey.

= mama looking up from a book she’s reading, “ne, ano ang jaundice?”. ako: “ito baga yan ma nagyeyellow”. mama: “iyo ngani, pero ano talaga yan? arin may deperensya kayan?” ako: “ay icheck ko daw atchan”. mama: “ay iyo ano, pirmi ka palan may kaulay na doctor sa trabaho mo”. ako: “ma, for the nth time, DAE AKO NAKIKIULAY SA SA DOKTOR sa trabaho ko!”
:) i want to dress up for halloween this year.

25
Oct

saved by the mouse

had a vomit-your-guts-out type of migraine last night. maybe it’s my punishment for procrastinating again.

anyway, woke up feeling worlds better. turned the radio on and heard “colors of the wind” from pocahontas.

couldn’t help laughing. i remember that song! our speech teacher from college gave us our midterm project - recite our favorite poem in front of the class. day of my turn, i thought i had my poem down, but i kept spacing out minutes before and couldn’t remember lines from the poem!  i was panicking.

as my name was called, i made that last second decision and as i stepped in front of the podium, this came out: “you think you own whatever land you land on?”

by the second chorus, i almost had that sing-song tone to my voice, it almost gave me away. thank god, ms. whoever she was wasn’t a big disney fan. loved my classmates for pretending to not know the “poem” and resisting the urge to sing the chorus with me.

pheuw! hilarious and embarrassing!

i got an A by the way. (thank you ms. vanessa williams..hehe).

25
Oct

check the box

wow. four out of ten.

i guess they left out “emotionally dysfunctional human  being”.

how many ika? :)

25
Oct

oct 24, 2009

chin came home again. good to see face after all these years.
made chika til early morning. had lots of laugh over the silliest things about highschool.
still weren't able to settle the issue, "who the hell played romeo in our romeo and juliet in highschool?"
i hope our plans push through though. with face's name behind the masterplan, i hope everyone will take this thing seriously this time. it's face people! get on board!

23
Oct

GLEE!

i’ve always been the musicals kind of gal, (musicals, not the ones wherein the cast suddenly go to the beach and sing  ako si cheetaeh ganda lalake). so naturally i fell in love with GLEE…

i especially love that diva kurt. i just want to put him inside my pocket like my personal tinkerbell, and sprinkle everyone with his dust of fabulouzity.(how kimora is that? hehe). plus i think the androgynous sue sylvester is one of the funniest villains there ever was. she’s all sorts of wrong but i love her.

i hope this show doesn’t lose momentum to carry it out to its next season. am i ever going to get tired of watching Mr. Schuester do kanye or sisqo? i don’t know. but for now, i can’t get enough that i watch it on cable and download it on the net just so i can sing along over the weekend again and again.

have a gleeful weekend!

20
Oct

*&%# shitty day

1 spoon of instant coffee diluted in 1 tiny pack of cold chuckie  = palpitations and shakiness. no surprise there.

but breaking into tears when told that there was no more rice left for me at lunchtime - very surprising.  i seem to be more stressed than i realized. stressed and a little loony. what a brat.

20
Oct

oct. 21, 2009

went over to lola’s earlier tonight. watching tv patrol, this conversation ensued.

lola: mga tonto. kun suarin naggururang na saka palang mapakarasal.

ako: la, dae man ninda pighalat mag-abot arog kayan edad para magpakasal. kataon lang gurang na sinda nagkabistuhan.

lola: ano pa kayan, ano pang iaaki ninda sa edad na yan.

ako: dae man ata ninda pinakaobheto magkaaki la. dont worry.

lola:  kan panahon, dae na pighahalat arog kayan edad para magpakasal. kung magkagurustuhan, kasal na.

ako: maparong pa sana, karasalan na. saka ta gurang na sinda natrue love man daa la. (i really used those words? euw)

lola:  inda ta anong sakit baya kan mga aki ngunyan makahanap agumon.

ako: inda man ngani sainda po.

lola: grabeng pairisip-isip, kaarabot nang trenta, dae pa lamang ilusyon.

ako: (ouch!) hahaha! ….

lola: hilinga ni si kuyan, bakong sitenta na yan?

ako: la, 40 plus palang si korina sanchez!

——end of conversation——

19
Oct

oct. 19, 2009

thank you.

i needed that.

it’s been a long time since anyone’s told me something remotely in that context.  actually, no one’s ever told me that. so really, from the bottom of my impatient and sometimes hopeless heart, thank you.

i am after all just like any other girl. id jump off a cliff for words.  (not really, but you get that part.)  :)

17
Oct

oct 17, 2009

today was a weird day.

i got to sleep in til almost 2pm. had to meet bes at SM at 4pm. 2nd day of its 3-day sale. the place was packed.  a little kid’s hand got stuck in the escalator. poor kid! bes said she even rushed to the kid to see if she could pull her out, but the kid’s hand was really stuck and it looked as if a metal monster was gobbling the kid’s hand up and the kid was screaming in pain.  i heard the commotion and saw the huge crowd gathered around the escalator, but i didn’t see the kid. i didn’t want to. i was scared there would be blood and my empty stomach wouldn’t be able to take that so well. poor kid! she couldn’t even have been three to bes’ estimation. sad. tsk. i often see tiny kids playfully running up and down the escalator. i hope every accompanying adult would strap them to their waists and tell them it’s not a tsubibo ride.

anyway, before we walked around, bes told me everything was still MAHAL even with 50% slashed off, so we just ate instead.

after that, bes talked me into getting this.

it’s a time machine. one that would take me back to the time when i was getting my wallet out and thinking “should i really be getting this?” and then id be deciding differently and shutting my ears off to bes’ salespitch.

well, it really sucks… (lame ass joke, i know, but whatever)

i think i need it. i do. i need it. it’s a gud buy. it’s 50% off. i saved a lot. i’m not going to get a better deal than this. i’ll use it everyday. i’ll sleep holding it close to my heart. i’ll pass it on to my great granddaughter. or to cathy’s if i don’t get to procreate. or to bes’ if cathy is barren. :)

15
Oct

oct. 16, 2009

how come we HATED taking naps when we were kids and now that we’re adults, it’s all we ever do? was real life that fun when we were kids? or is it because our dreams are  better than reality when we’re older?

anyways, i miss you so much kikay and your cooking. i swear one day, geno is going to kill me with food poisoning. (joke! hehe). so in that regard, i have just now struck up a bargain with my little sister. she is going to cook lunch from now on and i’d pay her. like oprah pays art smith. (yah, i get a kick out of comparing myself to oprah, hehe).

pretty wise huh? and in a very scar-like mode,  (you know, from the lion king, simba’s uncle) the sister can now say, …..”stick with me and you will never go hungry again!!! bwahahahaha!”

wow. today marks my 1st year anniversary at work. so far so good. :)

15
Oct

o gloriang makapangyarihan

i read somewhere:

What do you get when you cross GMA with floodwaters?

A new disease called

Kleptospirosis.

(tinapay:  kala ko ba rumor lang yung buwayang  namataan sa baha?)

13
Oct

simple joys in life

=== knowing the answers to some jeopardy questions and voicing them out before alex trebek says the right answer, especially when someone is around to hear them.

====rendering my mother speechless: us watching TV. mama snorting “nagrerelilive-in, tapos mangalas magkabaradusan”. me as-a-matter-of-factly replying in a tone i use to talk to my little cousins, “ma, dae man kaipuhan maglive-in para mabadus. kaipuhan lang magsex.”

i know she opted for euphemism because heaven forbid her kids hear her say that word. i however love going in for the kill and seeing the shock on her face when i  use that word. hehe…

=== knocking on teapot’s door when she’s sleeping. revenge is sweeeeet..

=== napping in the middle of work. shhh…..

to be continued….

12
Oct

october 12, 2009

how’s this for a first? i got asked to leave the movie house today.

the reason? because i was THE ONLY ONE there. the guy who i guessed worked the projector said, “sayang man kaya maam, ika na lang po yaon digdi, balik ka na lang po sa aga.”

it was the last full show and when i first got inside, there were a couple of people, but by the second movie, everyone had left but me. i liked having the whole theater to myself, made me feel like oliver warbucks. so naturally, that guy asking me to leave pissed me off. i replied in the bitchiest tone i could muster, “are you kidding me? i paid to watch two movies”.

balik na lang daa po kamo sa aga”.

dae ako pwede magbalik, i have work tomorrow”.

“sayang man po kaya daa ta solo-solo ka lang po maam”.

“may lakaw kamo ta minamadali nindo ako? i’m not leaving. does it matter kung sarong batalyon nagdadalan or saro lang? iyo ni an schedule nindo. i paid for my time here. pakisabi sa manager mo, mahale ako kung ibalik nya bayad ko.”

“sige po maam”.

he then came back and told me the manager said it was okay for me to stay and apologized for wanting to kick me out. i said  apology accepted.

then the guy sat a few seats away from me and we saw the movie together.

funny day. :)
hay, sana mayong laog sa aga.

11
Oct

cathy’s twisted answer….

socialinterview.com

“What is the funniest thing you’ve ever seen/heard Tinafay Kafay do/say?”

 

I answered: “everything is funny with tinapay. but the best was her quip that she’s “easy”..hehe “

how is that funny cat?

 

i like my hair lugod pag dae tig-huhugay. pagpig-eefortan, garo na tatagan.

dancing at 2:55 am to justin timberlake’s “rock your body”.

walang tulugan!

10
Oct

oct 10, 2009

Iniwan ka na ng eroplano
Ok lang baby
Wag kang magbago
Dito ka lang
Humimbing
Sa aking piling
Antukin

p.s. ano bang talagang meaning ng buwa? as in: pumunta ko sa riyadh para buhayin ang pamilya ko pero inalipin ako doon, sa hirap, dinugo, lumuwa ang buwa ko.

just asking. happy weekend.

08
Oct

im not complaining, i repeat, im not complaining

THAT’S IT! i’m getting myself one of those water heating chuvas. showers are supposed to be relaxing. not something i dread doing at the end of the day (and sometimes neglect doing because it’s just too painful to drag myself in there when my body is dead tired na….euw).

btw, had to make that disclaimer as my title because in the past, each time i complained about my job, something would go horribly wrong and id find myself comforting my jobless ass with several helpings of buds baked mac (and that doesn’t sound right..hehe).

work today literally brought me to tears. not the volume itself but my inability to work at a regular pace because of sheer exhaustion from lack of sleep the night before. work ran an unprecedented 16 hours, finished a little before 1AM. in a reversal of roles, we had to take on some of the load from a number of manila officemates because of the scheduled brownout in their respective places.  (as far as i know, the bicol MTs have this excuse down to a T.. because we do have lousy power services, our place especially. bossing probably just rolls her eyes whenever a bikolano MT begs off from work because of brownout, “hmp. wala nabang iba?”). so this is what it feels like to be dumped on with another batch of dirty laundry just when you thought you’re done with the whole hamper. not a good feeling.

hay. another day tomorrow. again, i’m not complaining. just making kwento. there’s a difference.

07
Oct

oct 8, 2009

4:02 AM. still can’t sleep. there’s sheep everywhere. kanding. kurdero. mary had a little lamb. caldereta. :)
i think i’ll go downstairs and eat.

going to count pigs next. this little piggy went to the mall….

06
Oct

oct 7, 2009

=slept as early as 10pm. got woken up by rustling plastic at 1AM. i wonder whatever happened to my mantika sleeping power abilities. i must really be getting old.

= earlier, had to sit through two hours of vanessa hudgens’ nasal singing voice. now why does she get cast as the girl who sings when her voice is not even that remarkable? she acts like she sings…lackluster…and very annoying.

=saw the timetraveler’s wife as kadobol. didn’t fall in love with the characters but saw eric bana’s butt in all its nekkid glory five times (yes i counted).

= craving for jollibee’s new chicken BBQ. when will this little barrio have its own avenue strip daw hay. if i was living near centro, i could sneak out right now and be chowing down on two, no make it three pieces of chicken BBQ. kainis.

= chats with cathy make me a little less abnormal and a little more gaga. funny girl.

= waiting for a reply. things are different. confused but hopeful that things will eventually get better.

= 4AM…in the stillness of the night, i suddenly hear nobody, nobody but you. now i feel like dancing but i should be sleeping. try to sleep tinapay. goodnight world.

04
Oct

oct 4, 2009

can i just say how irritated im becoming with smartbro connections? not only has it been weeks with this on and off connections, i can’t even get through customer service to rant on some poor customer service agent! i would have severed ties with smart long ago had i not been too unfortunate to be living in an area where the number of applicants for the other internet service provider have exceeded the available bandwith. (yan sabi ni miss taas kilay na pighaputan ko ha). just my effing luck!  i have to wait for a month pa to get on the list.

glad that’s out of the way.

now, happy, happy birthday to my 8-year-old sister (baka ngani 6 years old pa, ta kan eve of her birthday, she kept chanting, “rain, rain go away. come again on susan’s day!”…which in fairness made me laugh so hard).  to you buds, i wish you’d never lose that childlike, almost krung-krung side of you. or your emo side. or your artistic side. or your taray side. or your kind and giving side. ahlabsyu!

    

p.s. i got her a gift man daw cat. (siempre mekup, ano pa man)…i’m not as bad a manay as you think i am. teapot on the other hand….shhhh…hehehe….

02
Oct

oct 3, 2009

pepeng gave me my four-day vacation (weekend included). the brownout lasted til 7 pm last night and was only able to work for 2 hours using up the laptop’s batteries. i originally planned to go to lola’s, but bossing told me to not leave the house as it could be dangerous daa. aww. how  nice of her.

i’ve always wanted time away from work.

so why do i feel this big disappointment when i woke up and found out i wasn’t assigned the weekend work? why? when every freaking weekend, i struggle with meeting the deadline and wishing til i turn blue that the work would magically get done without me having to lift a single weary bone in my body.

hay. you know what they say about contentment? it’s not something most of us can claim to. we’re all such restless individuals, always wishing for another thing when what we have is perfectly fine. you’ve always wanted a vacation and now you have it. what do you intend to do with it? more importantly, how are you going to make it worth missing out on the oh-so-important-center-of-your-life work?

i have no idea. but i think i’ll start with washing my hair thoroughly. take all the grime out of this week’s tragedies. and combing it for once! yey!

you too have a great weekend. :)

02
Oct

oct 2, 2009

the thought of him crying in pain makes me want to cry myself. discovering how scared he is of showing such vulnerability is heartbreaking.

because nothing will ever get him back to where he was. not this latest effort. or the probable next one after that.
:(

01
Oct

october 1, 2009

shucks, the news are depressing and uplifting at the same time.

saddened by the massive destruction brought by ondoy.

uplifted by the sheer strength, goodness, and resilience of the human spirit.

praying pepeng will be kinder or better yet, change its course.

hoping the people downstairs left some food for me as i am now duling hungry.

warm hugs for everyone. :)

28
Sep

sept 28,2009

very bothered and worried.

a metaphorical storm might be brewing on the horizon.

“pag pwedeng masolve ng pera, di yan problema”.

sabi ko man, “shut up henry sy.

24
Sep

ahmishu

i miss kikay and lalaine. especially lalaine. i have never seen a more politically conscious 15 year old or a sharper memory for songs and tv commercials. i actually miss her shouting at the TV “hambugon kang hayup ka, arroyo!” and her twinkling eyes when she’d retell me scenes from boys over flowers, usually ending with, “gwapuhon talaga si jun pyu adi ate?“.  she knows every word to every commercial she’s seen…and she’s seen them all i guess. i said i would give her the preamble and the table of elements for her to memorize just for fun, but we never got to that because they prematurely left. 99% sure they’re not coming back.

last fiesta , mama wouldn’t allow them to watch gerald anderson at the plaza show. she played the “stampede” card and unwaveringly told them, “no”.

so buds and i cooked up a plan. i’d tell mama i’d buy lots of heavy grocery so i’d need the two girls to carry them home since i’d be attending to something else after. clever, right? sadly, we never got to act out our seamless plan…the morning before the show, i heard they had to leave.

the house is quieter now. even geno, tatay’s singing caretaker, lalaine’s nemesis, has flat-out admitted to missing them. he now has no one to bicker with and he has to solely bear the full, 170-pound brunt of mama’s fury every time something gets screwed whereas before, all three of them took equal bites out of the pie of sermon my mother would serve them on a regular basis. i now find my amusement from geno’s attempts at domesticity, his consecutive palpaks, and the dramatic  “oh em gee ate, naloloka na ako!”.

of all the ones who came, they were the only ones i had hoped would stay longer than originally planned.

too bad they had to leave.

21
Sep

walang magawa

==sort of skewered my index finger with the metal hook of my retainer. poor finger bled like a tiny fountain (i’m exagerrating of course ….just a bit like the second day of your period, euw.). now, it’s pulsating like a teenager’s heart on his first date.

i know, i know. i really make lousy similes.

i should just try to sleep LIKE a normal person. try being the operative word.

===rewatching my favorite parts from coffee prince. “i don’t care if you’re a guy or an alien, i like you”… ah, the sweetest declaration from a guy to another guy, right?

===there goes that song again! “anong kailangan kong gawin upang malaman mo…..chuchuchu….” from circa robin-vina tandem. why is this song following me around? :)
===i’ve just realized the reason why i’ve never felt particulary friendly toward this one person. i resent them for taking away my supposed to be travel buddy, housemate, and partner in crime. we had plans when we were younger, damn it! i also realize it is sheer immaturity on my part to feel that way, but i can’t help it. i also know that realizing this won’t make me any more civil than i already am to them. that’s the extent of my affability. any more than that and i’d puke all over my red shoes.

that is all for now.

19
Sep

dear daltonian,

we’ve connected the dots and we now know who you are. yanggi is a very good detective. joy,hmm…not so much. hehe.

we understand if you still don’t want to reveal your true identity, we get that.

but we’re just saying,

BISTADO KA NA!

bwahahahaha!!!….

19
Sep

sept 19, 2009

i don’t like elevator rides. i especially hate the lifting and plummeting part. they do weird things to my stomach and my equilibrium.

i had such experience tonight at the penafrancia fiesta carnival on a ferris wheel ride, but 10 times worse. i know it’s just a silly ride. it wasn’t even that high and i’m sure it didn’t go 50 kph, but men, did i feel bad! like i lost my soul somewhere midair. before the ride, i was telling joy, “that looks really scary (as it didn’t look like the safest setup i’ve ever seen and gondolas where rocking like your regular swing set). makuragrit talaga ako. don’t stop me.” but when we started lifting and plummeting, i didn’t even squeak. i was speechless. i knew i kept chanting in my head, “please make it stop, please make it stop. no more….”.  a montage of scenes from final destination part 2 started playing in my head when we were suspended on top of that damned thing. my eyes must have been as big as saucers.

joy was laughing and very, very chatty. she kept saying, “say something piggy, say something!”

but i couldn’t bring myself to open my mouth and utter a word.

i have only been held speechless a few times my whole life (either from a very beautiful surprise or an extremely terrible incident). and damn it, i hate to add a silly ferris wheel ride to that list.

hay taggy. that’s a forewarning for you. i have the queasiest stomach and i am a manang who thinks adrenaline rush is so overrated. you still want to take me to enchanted when i visit? :)

17
Sep

:(

this is what i work with these days.

the idea is mama’s. the tambod is tatay’s. the pain is bearable but still a bitch. especially when you only get two hours of sleep each day. i don’t think it serves any purpose other than to remind me to NOT USE THE RIGHT HAND outside of work. it screams at me, “if you want to continue with this line  of work for  a couple more years, give me some idle time”. so i am now, for the time being, for most part anyway, a lefty.

oh, i’m such a sweetheart around everyone these days. i get hugs for my bellyaching. really. the fact that i’m such a whiner hasn’t even been brought up.(the tone here is sarcastic if you’re wondering).

hay. i need a fully body massage and a sleeping pill or two. and i could give these guys a run for their money.

16
Sep

sept 17, 2009

last night, or early this morning, i had the chance to slap my little sister across the face.

i started dozing off at probably around 4am (because i still haven’t solved this insomnia crap).

then i was startled out of that light cloud of sleep when i heard my sister yelling, “hayup ka!” in a very strained, very pained voice.  she does this often enough that i’ve learned to ignore her. but she kept repeating the phrase, almost like a chant. so i took my cellphone out, flashed a light on her face, and slapped her. she turned over, didn’t even acknowledge me and went right back to sleep.

oh, of course shaking her shoulders would have worked as well, but i was feeling dramatic and i was about to fall asleep, damn it! i was so irritated that she was snoring again in seconds,  while i was back to counting sheep that i was tempted to maybe kick her in the shins just to be safe she wasn’t still having the nightmare. of course i didn’t and let her sleep.

now, i’m waiting for her to wake up and tell her all about the drama last night and how she kept me awake and how i had a wonderful time imagining tearing her hair out until the time i had to get out of bed and work on empty batteries. again.

i feel a bit guilty about the slap. but really, i was at the gates of REM!

hay.

13
Sep

man talk

a guy when asked, “how can one tell a real man?” very authoritatively and haughtily answered, “the beer belly”.

which i followed up with another question, “so those with washboard abs?”

“gays”, he predictively answers.

yes, trust men to reduce a seemingly rare and difficult to attain characteristic deemed desirable by the opposite sex (the fit body) to a queer, unmanly trait. hay, foxes, think what you want, but the grapes REALLY ARE SWEET.

imagine a girl maliciously eyeing a vavavoom girl and the first girl immediately thinking, “lesbiana, hmp”. 

a very unlikely scenario right? that’s because we girls might want to tear some other girls’ hair out for being too pretty, but we never use homophobic slurs to make us feel better about ourselves.

i don’t understand why sexual insecurity is such a huge issue with guys. why blood has actually been shed over a mere suggestion that one could actually be gay (as if being one is the most demeaning and insulting assumption people could make of them).  we rarely see two guys being touchy-feely with one another, because god forbid they’d be accused of being less masculine than they actually are.

i admire that guy who actually has the guts to admit to some things uncharacteristic of adam’s descendants — like having seen a few telenovelas or knowing the words to some sappy love song by a boyband, or wanting to learn how to sew or bake — he who doesn’t take capital offense punishable by death at being called bakla, jokingly or otherwise.

and to wrap up my incoherent thoughts on this subject, your 50-inch girth doesn’t make you a real man, dude.

11
Sep

sept. 12, 2009

well, i’ll be damned.

the only time i actually woke up for weekend work….resolute to actually WORK, and there IS NO work. apparently, something went wrong with the upload from the client and we’d be able to download the weekend work tonight or tomorrow morning pa.

hay…i WAS going to work. i WAS not going to put it off for sunday. it WAS going to be my day to prove i COULD ward the demons of procrastination off. i WAS even going to drink coffee if it came to that, just so i’d finish it today.

okay, you and i both know i’m just pulling your leg.

sweet! now id finally be able to watch yes man ni jim carrey and hangover…. in one sitting. love that bichara’s threatened by SM’s ticketsales that it has actually learned to combine movies from the same box-office profit margin. meaning one hit plus another sort of “hit”….who’d want to watch one movie for 100 pesos when you can see the same movie plus another one at a relatively lower price? nice move whichever bichara family member you are. hugs for you..hehe.

happy weekend y’all.

09
Sep

september 10, 2009

2:38 am. just woke up from a very sticky, uncomfortable sleep.

i’ll explain.

five hours ago, i told my mama that my hands hurt like hell. my wrists particularly.. she asked our help, lalaine to massage my arms. 20 minutes later, i had oil all over both my arms and felt sore from the kneading and whatnot. then lalaine said, “dae ka pede magkarigos ate”.

argghh!!! i forgot about that. i should have taken a bath first. is that even medically supported? pasma i learned from my friends is not daa. pero oh well, can’t argue with a 15-year-old girl.

so at 10pm, i begrudgingly went to bed. thank god the headache is gone. it’s been an unusually hot day that the AC seemed to be doing nothing…to either my headache or my temper.

so at almost 3am, i am awake and bothering tere about true blood and torrents. goodluck kung makatrabaho akong tultol sa aga.

shit, my back hurts like a bitch scorned.

08
Sep

peechures

07
Sep

september 8, 2009

taggy was right. i now understand you tere (pirmi akong late mahumaling, i know…story of my life…hehe)… i did sort of fall in love with edward on the midnight sun draft.

though i still say…..ben barnes.

oh  be still my heart. hehe…

06
Sep

themesong of my life: DI NA NATUTO

4:38 am and im just wrapping up with work which ive put off.  AGAIN.

hay.

itutulog ko na ang kahibangang ito nang bonggang-bongga.
:)
update: got woken up prematurely, just 3 hours into my planned 14-hour coma - by all this ruckus downstairs created by the mother.

whoever said that im a drama and panic queen should meet my mama. i’m the calm and she’s the STORM.

argghh….

05
Sep

same old sh!t on a saturday

= frustrated my project hasn’t gotten off the ground yet. turns out it’s not as easy to do business with former neighbors whom you’ve never spoken a kind word to - until now….decades later.

= squinting my eyes, scratching my head and trying my damn hardest to get back to work (which i haven’t even started yet actually, just opened some patient list), and failing miserably. i will work tomorrow. there. problem solved.

= whoa, that glen medeiros song i used to sing along to when i was a little kid is playing on the radio.  “you wananowbanaw how much i love you”. i had to invent some lyrics then. this song takes me back to mabolo, the rilis, the patos under the bamboo floors, the balance beams that took you to each house threshold, and the smell of sawdust in the air as my babysitter aka uncle skillfully used his spokeshave by the shed.

= teapot testing my resolve to not throw things at her again — singing in her choir tone and volume. the most annoying sound i have ever heard my entire life. EVER.

= buds running a fever but still refuses to be apart from her computer at this hour. stubborn ass girl.

= done with the twilight saga except for the midnight sun draft. should i read that as well, i wonder. is that gonna change my mind about the movie being poorly casted? okay, i sort of don’t hate bella as much now, but i hate that i still have to see kristen stewart and her bitchy eyebrows in all the installments.  i’m still  not feeling R-patz either.  i would like to think ben barnes (sigh….) would have made a better edward than that kill-bill-director-lookalike (i can’t resist, peace! hehe.) also, i say kick nikki reed out of the cast.  one barako-looking cullen is enough.

= waiting for the sugar rush after eating 3 kitkat bars and 2 packs of gummy bears. my ears are probably ringing but the radio’s drowning the sensation.

= looking forward to a long weekend (one doctor already said it’s a holiday on tuesday, but i’d never really know until then).

= wondering how cathy is going to celebrate her birthday tomorrow.  she hates growing older. says she just wants to bury herself under the sheets and not come out until her birthday has passed. what’s this aversion to adding to our years anyway? take out the numbers and we’re still as young as we feel (pep talk in preparation for MY own upcoming birthday).  anyways, i hope she spends it surrounded by happy people and lovely presents (minus one from me ta pag-uli mo na lang). happy birthday cathy! miss you na and love you. (i have NEVER said that to you ha, check your pulse…. and yes, it’s just this aging shit that’s making me all mushy…hehe). icecream’s on me when you get back home.
:)

03
Sep

september 3, 2009

stumbled upon this guy on youtube.

love listening to his library of songs.

ellen should be hot on this guy’s trail any moment now.

or maybe she already had him on the show (because he’s been around for some time apparently) and i missed it.

anyways, hay. :)

31
Aug

september 1, 2009

it’s really getting on my nerves.

estrada all geared up for 2010 presidency. getting all peacocky on his interviews again.

i am going out from under this anarchic rock and getting registered this time…just so i can be one of those who’ll cast a vote against him.

stupid political advisers. stupid avid supporters.

28
Aug

top 15 memories

tere on her blog suggested i write about my 15 college memories.

here’s my list.

1 === i met bes van on my very first day of college. the bruha practically told me her entire life story, highlighting her recent breakup with her first boyfriend. i listened of course, tiglibre kya akong spaghetti sa cafeteria. to this day, i still i don’t know why she chose to pour her heart out to a stranger and why me of all the anxious-looking freshmen there.  anyways, tanda ko pa bes itsura mo.  nakasuper big shirt ka pa na purple, ang haircut mo garo si wowie deguzman kan UMD, tong garo baga may nakatugdon na paru-paro sa payo mo, uso bga kaya kato…(ill stop right there ta baka magbalos ka bes, matandaan mo man itsura ko..hehehe).

2 === i marched on my graduation day, received my diploma, and took a bow in front of the four pillars looking like i always do these days. nakamaong, nakastriped t-shirt, nakatsinelas, nakabackpack, and very, very tanned mind you. hehe…

tapos that’s all i have for my list. unfortunately, college was a blur. i honestly can’t remember what happened in between those two things. heck, i don’t even remember what my thesis was about.

kaya, tere, with your permission, highschool na lng ang the rest of the list.

3 ==== i played a typical noveau riche mother to a balikbayan in the maiden production of our dramatics club on stage for “new yorker in tondo”…fully made up, in miniskirt, high heels and dangling earrings! and i had ridilicous lines! so glad people weren’t as kodak happy then as they are now. pheuw! kakatakot na pictures i tell you!

4 ==== my supposed to be date for J prom (we had to look for dates because we had few guys in our class), after being introduced to me, said he’d be leaving for manila that night, so no, he couldn’t be my date, sorry. prom night, the guy’s friend tattled about his friend needing to make an excuse to get out of the “date”. obviously, rethinking his decision that moment he saw me. my first real taste of rejection. ouch!

5 ===== for an extempo contest, i had to talk for 15 minutes about why religion should’t be included in our high school curriculum… at the grand imperial plaza. somehow, i couldn’t even pronounce “curriculum” and i kept saying, “we have 11 subjects already! gosh!” as if that line alone would suffice. i kept circling around that reasoning all the while wishing for my body to faint. just this once. please faint. for me. faint!

6 ===== for an interschool debate contest, when we were up against ateneo,  my speech was about the city needing a certain project for its revenue. for the cross exam, sinaruan lang ako kan mataray na atenistang bading with this question, “miss speaker, what is revenue?” flustered and taken aback by the simplicity of the question, and giving myself a whack in the head for not writing down the exact definition of the word, i started grasping for words, stuttering, and the atenista cut me with a “that’s all, ms. speaker”. arrgghhhh!!!! I NOW KNOW WHAT REVENUE IS! please ask me that question again when we see each other sa SM one of these days.

7 ==== senior year, they held an exhibit of teenage heartrob pictures (yes, they really did!). i can’t remember exactly, but i think i said, “kaniguan na” when cathy asked me to go with her to the exhibit. she went by herself and later, basically told me that i sucked as a friend. i don’t know how i made it up to her though. do u remember cat?

8 ==== senior project for english, we had to do an entire shakespearean production. we drew lots on which roles to play, i unfortunately picked the role of the director. to this day, i still say, that was the worst “midsummer night’s dream” interpretation there could ever be. i didn’t even really read the entire story, i just told people to memorize their lines or they’re dead. some director. hehe…

9 ==== CAT nightmares when we had to march back and forth, disturbing the quiet neighborhood of jimenez park. oh how i hated CAT then. i stuck it out though. i didn’t feign physical maladies like some, ahem. you know who you are. hehe… now, sana nag-MP na din ako. langkwentang CAT yan.

10 ==== we cooked chicken something and that beef something for THE and had a little feast that day. only subject i wouldve been glad to retake had i failed it.

11 ==== movie analysis, first year, bichara, cat almost falling off her seat, pinching my arm, girls around shrieking as well, watching as the human form of casper the friendly ghost descends the stairs. ah….there i was a mere witness to the workings of first love.  (thinking to myself, euw, naano man daw ning mga taong ini? hehe….)

12 ==== had my first alcoholic drink at 16 when the debating team sort of celebrated for placing third by default against some highschool. i remember being so scared tatay would smell the stench of alcohol when i got home and memorizing the “our teacher said it was okay, she was there too!” spiel. nobody noticed though.

13 ==== walking almost every night from the school gate to the padyakan. that place held more memories than i could count.

14 ==== the investigatory projects…oh, the craps we came up with. i wish they were all documented so we could all take votes on who exactly made the biggest load of crap and passed it up as a science project. hehe…

15 ===== for my senior prom, i wore pants and slept on the table! hah, take that college self!

that’s it.  :)

27
Aug

august 28, 2009

10:33 am and still no bossing. i wonder where she’d gone to.

i wonder if  “skinship” is a known word and i’m the only one who needed to look it up. i keep hearing it in the korean dramas ive seen. urban dictionary says it’s a konglish (korean enligsh) term for a relationship that primarily focuses on the exploration of the skin.  i wonder if im the only one who finds this a weird word.

i wonder if i’ll ever stop feeling uncomfortable about being set up. thanks luns for thinking along that line, pero shy kaya tlga ako.heheh..

i wonder when i’ll start liking bella swan as i read through the twilight saga (new moon palang ako taggy ta ngunyan pa lang ako nagpoon magbasa ulit). i never liked that she’s overly dramatic and thinks she can’t live without that man. sheesh.

i wonder if my internet connections would ever be okay again.

i wonder if i can go out tonight so i can stock up on my pancit canton, chips and chocolates.

hay…

i wonder if i have enough time for a nap before bossing comes back. shhh…..

27
Aug

dream guy

hey cat,

i don’t know if bajoy has told you about this….

but she got it from her malaysian friend from the mail. i never got to see it grow since it takes 72 hours daa and she had to leave for manila the night we opened the package. i don’t want to think that joy’s mom took the liberty of growing him because that would just be utterly disturbing and plain wrong. so id like to think that the perfect boyfriend is still inside tita linda’s room this very minute, neatly wrapped in plastic, waiting for someone to own him.

ah…what is the world coming to? hehehe…

26
Aug

august 26, 2009

if last week was my diarrhea from hell: celebrity edition week, this week it’s insomnia 2.0: back with a vengeance. it’s been months since i’ve last had this.  i thought i finally had it down. stop thinking about waking up early the next day. anxiety is your number one enemy. stop worrying. i was doing fine, sleeping nearly eight hours each night (dawa pirming late sa trabaho..hehe)..

until the weekend work that lasted til 5am happened. then everything got screwed. haven’t had a decent sleep since then.

haissh…. i’ve tried the warm milk, the warm bath, trying to turn in as early as 9pm…to no avail. i only start feeling mr. sandman’s dust during the day. when i try to sneak in a little catnap at lunch time, i dream about a doctor demanding to have me fired!

what to do? what to do?!

tonight, mama gave me two 25-mg meclizines. yes, antiemetic, antivertigo pills for traveling. she says it works magic for her.

now, if my room starts looking like raymond bus and my sister starts behaving like an obnoxious seatmate, i might actually fall asleep tonight.

marequest daw ako. next week: amnesia! :)

23
Aug

cyclical moronic behaviour

sunday, 11:24 p.m., hours before the deadline of weekend work, which i’ve stupidly put off again for precious sleep, thumb twiddling, and m. night’s the happening.

now, i’m like the energizer bunny on weed and caffeine…only actually half true, got into a shouting match with the little sister for stealing her last stash of cold cappuccino in can (which i ironically buy for her as pasalubong every time i go out…“para ngunyan lang, riribayan ko man!” being my closing argument before slamming the door).

going…going…going….

2:33 a.m…heart thumping…thumping…thumping….

22
Aug

mind boggling conversation over ice cream

tinapay: “cathy asked me today if okay lang daa o corny na she wants to find an all-consuming love.”

bajoy: rolls her eyes “ano ba yan”.

tinapay: “i said it’s okay. who doesn’t want an all-consuming, butas-bulsa kind of love anyway?”

bajoy: “i hope i find my all-consuming love soon para gabus na desisyon ko nakabase na duman, saen ako maistar, anong trabaho ko, everything will fall into place, and id find my place in this world na”.

tinapay: “garo compass?”.

bajoy: “iyo. pero dapat makahanap muna kita na at least may spark”.

tinapay: “iyo, maski watusi lang, ok na yan.”

bajoy: “tapos sunod na si all-consuming love”

tinapay: “pano palan joy kun you have a series of all-consuming loves? bako man daw yan mapagalon? at the end, upos kana kayan.”

bajoy: “dae, may buildup man yan ata. si mga naenot banayad lang. si panghuri all-consuming na”.

tinapay: “saka ta not everything in life is in that precise order?”

bajoy: “ay panget man yan.”

tinapay: “let’s ask the love guru aka cathy lugod.”

       — end of conversation—–

21
Aug

august 22, 2009

still no hard, fully-formed shit, but at least no more rumbling, threatening to erupt anytime kind of stomach suffering. no more of the watery, mucousy, and sometimes stink up the entire barrio kind of shit. no more nightmares about desperately wanting to take a dump but finding the toilet door locked! no more scrubbing the ass raw . (this is solely for tere’s benefit, hahaha!)…

im free! and i actually feel a lot stronger, thank you very much.

i got scared there for a while, to tell you the truth. i was forced to take a total of six loperamide tablets (thanks to my mother who gave me two expired diatabs, “dae ako sigurado kun paso na si diatabs, kaya para sigurado, mag-inum ka na kaning duwa pang lomotil.”).  paso na palan, tigpainum pa sako!

that night i was not relieved of my predicament and it in fact got worse, so i ended up taking two more lomotil. six tablets! if that didn’t make a permanent plug in my butthole, i don’t know what would!

anyways, enough of this shit talk. i am now better and actually up and about.  laskwatsa tulos now that im freed from my shitty ordeal. :) thank you lord!

20
Aug

august 21, 2009

im definitely not amused.

please no more. please, i feel so weak na.

please let me see hard, fully formed shit.

hahaha….that sounded funny in my head.

now, it just sounds disgusting.

roll eyes here.

19
Aug

august 20, 2009

one of the reasons why i love my job….even if you have the worst case of obra-suka, you can still work (in between making mad dashes to the banyo).

for the last few days, ive felt dehydrated, weak, and spent.  i wake up feeling extremely thirsty, finding the room hot and stuffy.

on second thought, i dont like that with this job, i can’t make LBM an excuse to absent. but on the other hand, it’s a good thing na din because nobody’s around to smell you fart your way to kingdom come, it’s all you, wrapped in a cocoon of your own foul gas.

this has gotten really disgusting.

19
Aug

photoscape

tere has told me about photoscape a month ago and ive only now just gotten around to tinkering with it and it’s great! bye-bye pimples and raccoon eyes! pipo can eat my dust na. hahaha…. (joke, oh great photographer) i have no artistic eye like he does, but i’ll practice. try it y’all (the six people who read this blog :)

mayung magkontra tab!

18
Aug

O

so happy i found something new to obsess about. gotta hurry though - the fire might burn out faster than i can say, “obsessive tendencies”.

happy…happy..happy..

happy.
:)

16
Aug

august 16, 2009

napurnada sine time gawa ng problema sa bangko.

walang pera.

buti na lang may internet.

korean drama time. (at may tira pa palang trabaho, hala, lagot!)

15
Aug

august 15, 2009

i am making my rounds at kids’ birthday parties. today was mel’s baby jewel’s.

and dada came back home.

by the way, just heard the funniest line tonight when i was going home. a complete stranger sitting across me sa jeep asked me, “May binubuhay ka na?”.  i gave him a once over and replied “iyo, kadakul”, and proceeded to bob my head (a josh groban song was playing, but i HAD to pretend it was a song you headbang to, so he’d know i was listening to something and wanted to be left alone). but the stranger kept talking, so i pointed to my earphones and turned sideways.

yep, i have just officially been elevated to the matrona status today.

ah, you’re one strange dude but you made my day! :)
that’s it. gotta get back to work. hay.

p.s. hapi birthday jinx! magfacebook kana iyo…. :)

13
Aug

flower power

my cousin, auntie, and i went out for coffee tonight and we got to reminiscing the old times… our parents’ old times.

thanks to my aunt, i now have something to rebut my mother with when she gets all “i’m so above all that crappy lovey mushy crap”.

short version of the story: when my tatay was courting mama, he’d take my aunt who was probably seven then and walk from mabolo to lerma (where my mama lived). on the way there, they’d have to pass the railroad and my father, being the kurips he was, would start picking every flower he’d see. one particular plant grew almost the entire stretch of the railroad track though. this one plant, he’d always pick flowers from. now, knowing my father and his complete disregard for aesthetics, it couldn’t have been because he thought these flowers looked cute. he was plain kurips.  he didn’t have much choice since these were the only ones available for the picking.

so he’d lovingly gather these flowers and give them to mama each time he makes akyat ligaw.

which flower was it? get your notepads out because this actually works, living proof here telling you.

it’s the flower from the makahiya plant.

the picture here actually looks okay, almost pretty even….well, maybe because it’s magnified 10 times! do you know how tiny these flowers are? i wonder how many of these boogers my tatay used to pick and how he’d present them. knowing my father, i’d guess he’d just stuff them inside a tiny plastic bag and hand them to mama like a slice of dinailan. “ho, burak”.

for a daughter who never thought of her parents being the tiniest bit romantic with each other, playing this scene in my head made me laugh so hard, i almost had  choco drink coming out of my nose!

flowers are, after all, flowers. throughout history, they have proven to weaken a woman’s defenses, sweeten her disposition, and even melt her frozen heart. (okay, that doesn’t apply to every girl living beyond the 19th century, but please take off your feminist robe just this once and admit that it is nice to receive flowers once in a while .)

but maybe my mother didn’t really find the microscopic petals pretty. maybe she didn’t really like its grassy smell or its prickly thorns. maybe she just appreciated the effort my father had put in to get her those flowers. or maybe she really didn’t see into my father’s kaadimuhanan. maybe she just really liked him. :)
so now when my mother gets on her high horse and yaps about how easy some girls of this generation are, i’d have this to say,

hmp, ika nani nadara sa burak kan turog-turog!” :D

11
Aug

highlights of last weekend

- went to manila for baby mori’s birthday party…any excuse to get out of the house and ride a bus. i’ve always loved long bus rides. i tend to get queasy and i’ve never had much luck with seatmates but i still always look forward to that long, mind-numbingly freezing ride. i don’t know why.

- taggy didn’t hear my msgs and overslept. had to wait for 45 minutes to be picked up at jollibee, which i didn’t mind one bit by the way. got a little scolding for not calling her though. im too cheap to load pangmiscol daa. hehe..

- met with boyie and gerald whom i haven’t seen for probably eleven years! of course i was as excited to see taggy. i’ve known her since i was in the third grade, one of the funniest, smartest people i know (enough palapad papel na to earn me another night’s stay next time i visit? hehhe….pero true, peksman. thanks palan taggy for letting me stay and sorry if til you’re in your 80s your highshool friends will still refer to you as tagas or taggy…my bad.hehehe…)

  

- went to my dear, dear friend chin’s baby’s 1st birthday party and watched barney inappropriately dance to “you, so sexy!”. it was hilarious and i couldnt stop laughing hysterically. imagine barney. that adorable purple dinosaur kids sing along with. yep, that huge booger, wiggling and gyrating suggestively to “so sexy!”. you’d crack up too. afterwards, boyie astutely pointed out one short guy coming down the stairs, “baka yan si barney, grabe ngani an ganot”. she was right of course. we saw him hail a taxi with barney’s head in a bag. he was probably late for a bachelorette party. :)

   

later that night, gerald, taggy, boyie and i pretended to not care if people thought we were from a lost civilization of the ancient times and took pictures of our every move inside the mall. but of course we cared and finally stopped. then we sat down to discuss our batchmate’s current affairs (or stories from assumptions pieced together from pictures from various social networking sites, as i call it).  glad to confirm to everyone that one of our assumptions is right on the money. yes, all you sherlock boy abundas of dalton, ms. x and mr. y were indeed going out! but they’re not anymore. oh well. (this one’s shrouded in mystery as i didn’t think i asked permission to broadcast it, so that’s a  blind item for you).

- on my way home, i wanted to sleep so bad, so i took two adult bonamins.  felt lethargic and dozed on and off, interrupted once in a while by one of the drivers’ kakulitan about how familiar i looked and that we went to the same colllege daa and why the hell i couldn’t remember him. to which i sluggishly replied, “baka po tungka lang ako“, and id close my eyes to keep from rolling them. seriously manong! should i be flattered that you think i could be as old as you are? haisssh…

- i initially intended to give this ukay i bought to my favorite little cousin. but on the way home, the monkey grew on me so much, i decided to keep it for myself and name it “kiko”, like me, a kiko. sorry, jam, next time po, promise. hehe..

addendum: to taggy: i refuse to believe that marc nelson is gay! just because two guys are sharing a condo unit doesn’t mean they’re doing the horizontal for crying out loud! and the way they acted on the amazing race is not lover-like, you’re just malisyosa! hmp! :D

09
Aug

august 10, 2009

sometimes i like pushing myself. to find out how long i can last without a decent sleep and what damages the lack thereof does to my body.  it’s one of my idiotic attempts at self discovery.

im now doing that. i have probably slept a total of seven hours in a 72-hour period. just done with the weekend work. traveled miles and miles to arrive at this conclusion, “sleep is effing important.” i wish they could come out with a pill one day that offers all the benefits of a nine-hour sleep.

daytrip nightmare again. no bestfriend to keep me entertained this time. alone again naturally. hehehe…..

04
Aug

august 4, 2009

i’m going to live my life like everyday’s the last.

except on weekdays. because i have to work.

revise.

i’m going to live each weekend like it’s my last weekend.

there. better. :)

listening to: azure ray “across the ocean”.
03
Aug

the anatomy of my cheapness

i am attracted by cheap, cheap things.

 whenever i see the word “bargain”, i palpitate and convulse a little.  the “% off”  gives me a warm, fuzzy feeling inside. i walk like a zombie towards anything that says “SALE” or “buy one take one”.

i was passing by booksale today and i saw huge sale signs at the entrance. i thought, hmmm…..baka they have cookbooks on sale din (which we now have dozens of, all from sales by the way)… then i saw the 10-peso hardbound books on display. thick books with glossy covers. some even have really cute pictures on them. i frenziedly went through the collection, read some synopses, picked a bunch i found interesting, then exitedly texted tere about the sale. later on, as i was riding the tricycle, i realized, “readers don’t care about cheap books. they look for their favorite authors or a particular genre. tere probably wouldn’t mind spending 500 pesos on her favorite bestseller. you’re the only one excited about hardbound books penned by nobodies”.

admittedly, i am not much of a reader, not by my brother’s standards at least (who by the way reads international political commentaries to the paper used to pack tinapa. voracious doesn’t even come close to desribing the kind of reader he is). anyways, the thought of getting six books on a single purchase is  a bit uncharactestic of me. i don’t read much but my cheapness drove me to buy six books! how sick is that? i now have a 101 on pilates, three spy murder novels, and a couple others about dragons and dressmaking with really cute pictures on them. NOW, im obligated to read. maybe i’d pick up on reading again. who knows?

this recurring ailment of mine had me pondering as i was going home, am i just a bargain addict? or am i really that cheap?

to further illustrate the extent of my cheapness…let me present a few facts to you.

fact #1:  i probably have five ukay trench coats, i got each for 50 to 100 pesos. all of them nicely folded inside my drawer. each worn once the most.  i pray for hailstorm every now and then because otherwise, id probably never get to wear them again.

fact #2:  my poor, worn out sneakers are way passed their “do not resuscitate” status. i should have replaced them two years ago, but i can’t bring myself to. they were expensive by my standards to begin with, so by calculation, they still have a year of service left, give or take.

fact #3: i have a dozen broken watches (one of my favorite things in the world, you’d think i wouldn’t mind stretching a little, right?).

fact #4: my desktop is still unable to be used because im too cheap to pay for some “toad’s repair services” when i could sweet talk one of my little cousins to do it for me.

it’s a long list i tell you, so it gets boring.

now, to the dissection of this complex disease. i usually rationalize, nakakatipid ako. i am stretching my money’s worth by buying thrice the number of items i could get compared to a single purchase of a regularly priced “quality” product, because if one of them broke nga naman, i still have two. pretty childish, huh? but that’s how i always see it. plus, i have a very short “like” span, so buying less pricey, inferior-quality products that are bound to break after a few uses is a much reasonable thing to do than getting an expensive, heirloom quality product i’d get tired of next month.

i have also theorized, cheapness is heriditary. i just take after my father. everything he did in his heyday screamed “cheap!”. let me paint you a picture. cathy’s mom, who owns a banana stall sa market, would painstakingly set aside the almost rotten bananas for one particular customer - my tatay. just because they’re practically free. also, when i was a kid, i remember, he’d take us to his school sa sabang. on foot. from calauag. i probably went twice, then i begged mama to never let me go with him again. for years, we had to bother our poor neighbors for drinking water because he was too cheap to apply for NAWASA.

so there.

i know my reasoning is pretty lame though.

just read this article i found on cheapness….. it pretty much sums up everything there is to know about cheapness and overcoming it. ako, im going to get off my cheap ass and leaf through the cheap books i just bought.  :)

31
Jul

august 1, 2009

i am so frustrated with my internet connections the past few days! no yahoo. i can’t even use facebook. the blogs wont load.  i cant watch a decent clip on youtube.

how am i supposed to function without all these distractions im used to? am i supposed to just work? na garo robot?

arggghh!!! pissed! pissed!

on a completely different, un-childish note:  Rest in peace Madam Cory. may your legacy of democracy live on.

30
Jul

i have the sweetest friends…

really, i do.

though i don’t see them that often because of our busy schedules, on rare times that we do get together, i say that to myself (often followed by a long tsskkkkkk).

they individually came from separate periods of my life but amazingly enough, it seems as if they one day decided to meet up behind my back, put their heads together, and agreed on one thing: “pair tinapay up with someone…anyone“.

all of them have one way or another tried to give me a gentle push or a forceful shove into that potential someone’s path. they probably share the same frustration at watching me prance around by myself all the time (which i really don’t find anything wrong with by the way).

my bestfriend, though a perfectly cautious person when it comes to “meddling” into other people’s affairs, has more than once tried to “introduce” me to a co-worker whom we happen to bump into at the grocery and later on would scold me for not paying attention when the introductions were being made. she would say i could’ve at least tried to feign interest and manage more than just a curt nod. (next time bes, i’ll try to curtsy or beso just to shock you, hehehe).

guy friends on the other hand skip the introduction part and give me their bud’s number (from the newly broken up to this dude they know from high school or that guy across their house…anyone with a freaking cellphone!).. and of course, their approach to this whole thing is still macho …”yan ha, dae ko kaya aram kun ano baya hanap mo, bsta itext mo lang yan para dae ka man mabored. tapos malay mo”. hehehe….sweet no? guys are after all guys…. they can’t be bothered with the mushy stuffs, but at least they try to navigate through these situations strategically.

cathy, on the other hand, has taken it upon herself to bombard me with daily tips on how to get a guy, how i should look like to get a guy,  where i can get a guy, what to say when there’s a guy around… basically anything that has something to do with guys. i’m enjoying our almost daily repartee and i am taking notes, mind you,  but really, i haven’t seen you in action cat. how is the apprentice going to follow in the master’s footsteps if she hasn’t even been showcased these so-called talents? sige daw, pasikatan mo daw ako pag-uli mo. :)
now, tere….she shares the same goal as the rest. she likes to see me ride off into the sunset with someone, but she has got to take the award for the funniest, sometimes embarrassing approaches at accomplishing this goal.

okay, story sharing time. while we were in caramoan, the tricycle we were riding in had to stop at the checkpoint where a bunch of soldiers in uniform asked us the usual questions. “masaen po kamo?” and the likes. we were then cleared to proceed to our destination and just as the tricycle was about to rev up, tere shocked everyone by asking the soldier “single ka po?”. i knew right there and then what she was going to say next, but i just bit my cheek to keep from laughing. i was right. she next pointed at me and practically told the soldier to hit me with a club, throw me over his shoulders, and carry me to the boondocks (hehehe….joke lang, she just said, “siya po single man”…to which the soldier must have thought “o, labot ko man kayan”)…anyways, looking down and too embarrassed to say anything to the soldier, i hastily told our driver to hurry up as it was getting late. end of story. pheuw! just one of the cute, embarrassing, scary, and funny ordeals tere puts me through. heck, if it were probably up to her, she’d sell me to anyone who’d take me. no, scratch that, she’d pay any guy to take me. she’s really that sweet (and so devoid of subtlety oftentimes! heheh).

so there. i really appreciate all the efforts my friends are making just so i wouldn’t end up at villa marillac. i love them all. and don’t worry you guys. i really don’t like villa marillac. :)

28
Jul

caramoan july 2009

read tere’s review…

27
Jul

magayun kuta kun bakasyon na sarong semana tere… (talagang title ko siya iyo, hehehe)

just came back from the best weekend getaway ive EVER had.

i don’t even mind na gabus atang parte kan hawak ko nagraralagitok na sa pagal.

i can’t decide if it’s because caramoan is that fun or my backpacking buddies are the coolest bunch…it’s a tossup i guess.

and another item exed on my to-do-before-i-die list, i got do some wallclimbing! and no ropes pati! hababa man sana, pero so steep, i kept telling myself, “u could crack your head open on those sharp rocks tinapay, what the hell are you trying to prove?” thankfully though,  i just had cuts on my hands and feet but my skull’s still intact.

one more thing i found surprising was how much i enjoyed the rocky, almost violent, could-toss-you-off-the-boat part of the boatride. i still eyed the cluster of lifevests ever so often, but i thought it was almost like riding a carousel.  (weird for a person who wouldn’t even cross the bicol river in a baruto, adi?).

anyways, yan cat ha, may lugar na kitang dudumanan kun saen mo kami pedeng ilibre ni joyee. reasonable prices nya promise. :)
dali na ngani kan pag-uli ta gusto ko nang magri-leave nin sarong semana……  :)

24
Jul

ive come to realize that…

=== i need the stress,  somebody breathing down my neck, a ticking time bomb on my desk, or else, i tend to get nothing done. come to think of it, i got better grades on my “almost missed the deadline by a hair” papers than the ones i’ve spent rewriting and rehashing weeks before the deadline. but then again, maybe im just making excuses for my propensity to procrastinate.

==== cathy has some pretty far-out theories as to why i am what i am. she says my job has kept me from meeting people.(you’d think i’m some jet-setting CEO of a multinational company, right?)… so okay, 70% true. some days, that thought scares me, but most days i’m fine with it. but still, i stand firmly on my belief that it’s not my job, but rather my abrasive personality that repels people away. haha.

==== i never got to see how gilmore girls ended. ive always loved the show’s quick wit and its fast-talking characters. it didn’t get picked up for a new season, so i guess it didn’t really end.

==== those political ads really make me want to vomit. “lalaban tayo, hindi ko kayo pababayaan”…barf! having a renowned media personality as a beard, you’d think he’d get better PR tactic than this.

==== i really, really want to have a niece or nephew. next year. please. next year. (i know they say everything has a reason and i shouldn’t question fate, but i can’t help but think, “it’s unfair”.)

===== the thought of starting a whole new career when my current job goes kaput is one heck of scary thought that it’s giving me nightmares! first of all, job interviews are when i feel i’m at my fakest. i tend to blabber and get all “im a team player, loyal, and dependable, please hire me”  with matching puppy dog slash pageant contestant face…..fake, fake, fake!

===== i’m watching way too much korean dramas that i now curse in korean. my gawd! what’s happening to me?  aigoo!

=====my mother will probably never have to experience the empty nest syndrome since not one of her three daughters is showing signs of applying for that “ticket” out (i hope you know what i mean).

==== i’m keeping this blog for a very weird reason.

21
Jul

one down!

one proof of that funny, funny day..

 

in case you’re wondering, that’s me with the least guts. the one who wanted to be engulfed by the tides right there and then….hehehe…

it’s kind of liberating really. and a bit itchy. :)
but of course, we didnt spend the entire time in our birthday suits (si paige lang may karapatan ta birthday niya tlga..hehe)….

       

20
Jul

july 20, 2009

just got back from swimming..

extremely tired and sleepy….

but have to mark this day as the day i…. hold on, wait for it….

went skinny dipping!

I know, unbelievable, right?

that’s not all. we went skinny dipping…. in broad daylight!….and in pasacao of all places!

i still can’t stop laughing at that game of dare that turned downright nasty and scandalous!

no pictures yet though. tere, susette haen na si mga pictures? (dont puke yet, mayo man picture na above water….hehe).

so that’s one item officially crossed off my list. ano pa daw si iba? hmmm….my sleep-deprived mind can only remember the tattoo….so that’s next. maybe next week. :) good night world.

16
Jul

prime of life dating

“Gurang-gurang kana madayaon ka pa giraray!”

faint, garbled phrases.

“Saen mo man yan kinua? poon talaga kaidto hanggang ngunyan, puro daya aram mo!”

irritated mumbling.

“Ho! tira mo na! yan naman daya ulit ikaag mo.”

a loud hmpf….

—my mama and tatay playing scrabble early in the morning. such amusing repartee.

13
Jul

july 14, 2009

my dayoff…

went to sm…

saw ice age 3 and ate three day’ worth of junk…

asked the nice lady to teach my cousin and me how to curl with a flat iron….

  

bought a pilates ball…

pretended to use it at home…

 

lost my balance, rolled backwards, and bruised my left shoulder…

good dayoff. :)

10
Jul

damn fugly hands

when an innocent, incapable of kaplastikan child calls you on it, i bet you’d feel bad too.

“grabe ate, garo na mapurutok baga saka kulay pating green!”

arggghhh!!!

that’s even worse than those little cousins who called me “kuya” for years!

mayo lang. i hate that im bothered by their older than stated age look. i hate that they hurt so much these days. i hate that i can’t pull a holly golightly and wear gloves 24/7.

i hate that everything’s so boring me out of my wits that i chose to share about my fugly hands!

yun lang.

08
Jul

postsecret

sshhh…….

don’t tell anyone.

05
Jul

thoughts at 1:21 am

— any sign of flickering will get doused off by this line more than an ice bucket would ever do…..”boring kana?” it’s bored! you big caveman!

— the carrot juice in can tastes like beer! euw. dae pa man expired. at least i get sleepy with beer. ini nagkulog lang tulak ko.

— i really think i should undergo hypnotherapy against powerful, smooth-talking promo girls.  i keep getting caught inside the same trap.  same crappy products i’ll look at distastefully the next morning.

—bes, it’s my turn sa meteor garden! hand it over.

—aww, look at my baby sister…looking every bit the student again. writing down on her intermediate pad, cursing like a sailor for getting herself into this mess again. such fun to watch her.

—movies…ah thank god for movies.

03
Jul

july 3, 2009

my poor, poor jeans.

they never saw this coming.

i really should get a hobby or something. :(

02
Jul

midweek crisis

i think im going crazy. 

cattttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

30
Jun

july 1, 2009

paranoid about the intermittent hatchooo… and the sore throat…and the slight spike in temperature….

no way!

GET OUT!! GET OUT! (arnold schwarzenegger mode).

30
Jun

june 30, 2009

i was quietly watching boys over flowers on abs today when my mother stood right in front of the tv to tell me something. before i could even tell her she was blocking my view, i heard a very grumpy, firm, and booming voice saying, “jean, tabi daw jan”.

my mother and i both turned to look at tatay who was apparently intently watching from his side of the sala. he rarely speaks these days. so to hear him actually voice out that my mom’s full figure was getting in the way of him discovering jan di’s newest round of hardship was hilarious to us! my mother and i actually started laughing and shaking our heads.

ah,  the miracle of koreanovela…hehe…

anyways, today is my lola basing’s first anniversary.

dakulon na kami adi la? :) yan mapution na kulot, si buchik po yan. …. tapos may fish pond na si angkul jojo sa gilid kan dalan. nagparabanwit kami hanggang magbanggi, mayo man kami nakua….

regards mo po kami ki lolo.  :)

        

28
Jun

june 28, 2009

i guess the ticket lady wasn’t kidding. the line for transformers on weekends is going to be looonngg…. i thought she was just duping me into buying tickets that early…exactly a week before the premiere.  i couldn’t wait in line that long though.

as much as i needed to numb my senses with the explosions and the screeches (thanks for the review jinx) and that sole expression megan fox comes up with…i couldnt because i was lugging along an ass-heavy bag.

hay. sa aga na lang daw.  (luns, maniwangon kana tlga, promise!)  :)

26
Jun

chin came home

like an angel sent from the heavens to save me from the boredom that seemed to have permanently permeated my life, chin came home just in time and entertained me…(missed u chin)

joyee last, last week did the same….

now cat, what’s this crap i hear about you coming home in april next year pa?  ika na sunod na designated entertainer ko. nata haluyon pa?

26
Jun

the promise

im not even sure if any of them would remember…..

but i made them do it…..

so im counting on them to keep their end of the bargain…

we pinkie swore on it in fact…. that’s as good as the written paper or a blood compact even (right tere?)….

these are the parties, who at some point in their lives, entered an ironclad pact with me.

 

    

these people, all of them promised na ako muna maboypren bago sinda….

(i know jam’s there…pero shhhh…..heheheh)
:)

25
Jun

i am soooooo bored…….

cat, amuse me!

25
Jun

paalam jacko

august 29, 1958 - june 25, 2009

salamat sa musika…

23
Jun

june 23, 2009

my cousin came home one time and proceeded to wash the dishes. minutes later, i heard her let out sigh of dismay. so i asked her what’s wrong. she said, “nagparatype ako, i should’t have washed my hands! i don’t want my hands to look like yours!”

i eyed her bitchily and just as i was about to open my mouth to retort with a series of expletives, she added “Ang mga kamot mo baga kaya, ugaton na sobra!”

hayup ta nagpaliwanag pa!

one of the downsides of this job i guess. i really don’t know if getting your hands wet immediately after you’ve just been typing could lead to the development of hulk-like veins…my friend once told me na myth man lang daa yan, so i really don’t pay much attention to it.

pero tell me…

they don’t look that bad, do they? 

 

they’re not pambabaeng kamot, id say that, but it’s not like my hands look like the crypt keeper’s for crying out loud!

but i know they do look pretty unsightly. hay…. :(

22
Jun

june 22, 2009

the good thing about not being responsible for anyone is that you get to change your mind a thousand times about your decisions. hey, it’s just YOU pal. you’re your own captain. you get to man this ship and steer it to wherever you choose.

the bad thing is…. after the hundreth time you’ve changed your mind, it does get tiring. and frustrating. do something already! and for the love of everything that’s holy, stick with it!

i hate that i am so wishy-washy these days. i blame it on not having really the “need” to decide. nothing’s pushing me. there isn’t an urgency to anything…. no proverbial sword hanging above my head.  a plain “want” is what it is…. and that is the lamest of all drives. i really, really want to, but i really do not need to.

and yes bes, you have just made me consider some possibilities today. i am more confused than ever but at least i think im ready for the baby steps we discussed.  or maybe i should just take it in full strides, whatcha think? :)
 

whichever way, i sure hope it all pans out nicely.

p.s. damn dorothy and her ruby red slippers.

19
Jun

shyettt!! how old am i again?

tere’s post explains it best.

okay, given that i don’t have much of a choice about it. i am after all away from home, stuck most of the time inside this room with not that many choices for entertainment. solitaryo…. brickgame… kaboringan na hanggang langit! so i had to to pass excruciatingly long hours by watching the pirated dvd of the koreanovela….over and over again.

still, im bothered that ive fallen in love with boys over flowers this much. shyeett! coffee prince all over again (papa andy! hehe)

iyo man lng yan. bow. (stupid prepaid, i have to hurry each time im logged on).

06
Jun

june 6, 2009

i am a bitch these days.

not only is it the dreaded time of the month, but my smartype decided to bail out on me again, citing irreconcible differences, and i am now again trying to remember how to spell. and it’s the weekend too. so instead of sleeping, i’d be sitting here, developing carpal tunnel syndrome until the wee hours of the night.

fucking stupid computer.

05
Jun

june 5, 2009

a sadness a big pan of overloaded pizza can’t cure.

 oh well.

 a tub of ice cream then.

04
Jun

june 4, 2009

 when the rain falls and you suddenly realize you’ve made yourself a castle out of carton boxes…what do you do?

pray for a prince to come and save you? or jump from the tower?

either way, your castle is going to fall apart and you are in trouble.

30
May

may 31, 2009

earlier today, i told my cousin that i wanted to get a keyboard with softer keypads. her response was, “ano ka naman ate, matuod ka naman daw”.

i said, “eh sa habo kong matuod”.

why do i have to when i can choose to minimize the pain i feel each time im typing?

i have an ongoing issue with comfort. i always go for it. some say it’s kaaartehan. i say it’s wisdom.

don’t we all strive for comfort? isn’t successful a term primarily used to describe those who have achieved a certain level of comfort in their lives? i understand that tios means not having any other choice. tioson mo na lang ta iyo na lang yan. but if you do have choices, don’t we all want the easier, faster, more efficient route? i know that with struggle comes growth, and with suffering - strength….(or whatever it was that yoda said).  but i think if given the chance, we’d all want that road of suffering shortened.

yes, all that from the talk about a new keyboard.

but don’t listen to that. that’s me every night before i go to sleep….convincing myself that staying in my comfort zone isn’t such a bad idea and that it isn’t cowardly to stick with the things im used to. i’m just being practical. i’m sure i’ll still learn the same lessons even if i stay.

but i know, in my heart of hearts, i need to step out and endure a little discomfort. oh, i think i might be growing up finally. tsk. tsk.

23
May

may-23-2009

just got back from the movies. i didnt like what i saw but i loved that everything looked, felt, and smelled new. the seats, the walls, the CR…the theater was tiny and cute, almost like one of those celebrity home theaters from MTV crib. i almost felt hesitant to put my feet up on the second row of chairs because the upholstery looked so new. but i did so anyways because what’s a movie experience without putting your feet up? loved that the theater was almost deserted as it was the last full show and when i went out, the entire mall was a ghostown as well. made me wonder how it’s like to be trapped inside the mall overnight. garo nice with all the food..hehe…

now, back to reality. 7 hours’ worth of work pending. i will never learn. hay.

21
May

why could’t hayden kho have chosen a different song to practise?

careless whisper is now forever ruined.
:(

20
May

love at first sight

i recently decided to get a laptop.  now, the problem was (and still is) that i know nothing about computers. zero. as in type-type lng saka friendster aram ko..

so when it came to choosing specs and all those complicated letters (the GB, HDD, ODD), I had to call in my little cousin to give me the “Ano ka naman ate!” lectures.  i took him along for the initial canvassing. i pestered my anti too (hi anti, hehehe…) with my long list of questions.

so once ive obtained the price listings and specs from the computer shops i know, i showed them to my little cousin and let him decide which one to get. confident in his choice, i went the next day by myself to buy the stupid laptop.

kung minamalas nga naman, the model he chose was not available and i was left there standing with my price listings in hand, scratching my head, and the entire shop circling around me. i once again started hearing mandarin as the nice saleslady patiently relayed to me the specs of each model.

it was one of those rare days that i got off work early, so i HAD to make a choice. but which one to get? i could have stayed there for hours and hours and not firmly decide on a model, had this one particular model not caught my eye. it was red and it looked really cute.

so the clouds parted and a light shone on the red laptop. THE ONE.

So, that’s how i decided on which laptop to get. not by its processing power, storage memory, or anything else. IT LOOKED CUTE.

how disgustingly girly, i know.